Their Words

I'm sorry mama, I never meant to hurt you.

I never meant to make you cry.

There are many things that I would like to say to you

But I don't know how.

I can tell how much you hate this.

Deep down inside, you know it's killing me.

I can call, wish you well, and try to change this,

But nothing I can say would change anything.

I play my part and you play your game,

Teach me a lesson, maybe I deserve to know.

I think my bones are breaking under black eyes,

And book cases to the sky.

Your voice, it chased away all the sanity in me.

I'm alive, but I'm losing all my drive.

I guess I let you get the best of me,

Cut me down to size, and paralyze me

With the contents of your pretty little head.

We were always meant to say goodbye.

I'm trying my best to let go of you, but I don't want to.

I never wanted this, never wanted to see you hurt.

Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.

But people are people, and sometimes it doesn't work out.

It's not much, but I know that we've both changed.

My bones have shattered, my pride is shattered.

But in the midst of this self inflicted pain,

I can see my beautiful rescue.

I wish I could save you.

Hear my words that I might teach you,

Take my arms that I might reach you.

But my words like silent raindrops fell,

And echoed in the wells of silence.

It's a shame that it had to be this way.

It's not enough to say we're sorry.

I don't think you're gonna change.

There's just too much that time cannot erase.

You might just as well be blind.

Hope you can deal with all you will never know about me,

What I see, what I believe in, how I breathe, when I weep.

And how I'm better off without you, more than you know.

Songs used:

Cleaning Out My Closet - Eminem

Wonderwall - Oasis

Save You - Kelly Clarkson

You Give Love A Bad Name - Bon Jovi

Words - Darren Hayes

Bad Habit - Gregory and the Hawk

My Immortal - Evanescence

Goodbye - Secondhand Serenade

Over You - Daughtry

Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson

Just So You Know - Jesse McCartney

Breathe - Taylor Swift

Bend or Break - Secret Secret Dino Club

Beautiful Rescue - This Providence

The Sound of Silence - Simon and Garfunkel

Honesty - Billy Joel

All You Will Never Know - Avril Lavigne

These Walls

Laughter and tears take us closer I fear

I can't let this happen once again

See that look in your eyes whenever I'm near

Scares me because I don't want to lose my friend

I have this bad habit of getting too close

It always has to fall apart in the end

By the third time you touched me my heart just froze

Proving me right seems to be the latest trend

I put these walls up for a reason you know

I don't appreciate you just walking in and tearing them down

I don't want to hurt you and I don't want to let you go

Please don't make me say goodbye now

Why do they always have to mess with me

Is it so much to ask for just a friend

You think you're so different but you just can't see

The last thing I need is to be kissed again

I put these walls up for a reason you know

I don't appreciate you just walking in and tearing them down

I don't want to hurt you and I don't want to let you go

So please don't make me say goodbye now

Oh please don't make me

Please don't make me say goodbye now

If Miracles Can Happen

if miracles can happen, i got a little suggestion
though she may fuss and storm and put up a bit of a fight
becayse if miracles can happen people like her deserve it
no matter how much pain she' spread, she's still worth it, right?
if miracles can happen, please let them happen tonight

if miracles can happen, i sure think he could use one
a less willing candidate you couldnt find
but i know if he could see your light it would help a ton
because i think there may be a good guy deep inside
oh if miracles can happen, please let them happen tonight

if miracles can happen, please bless the poor ones
the ones who just can't see through their fright
if miracles can happen, please dig down deep
because the earth is full of hurting souls tonight

if miracles can happen, i know someone who needs it
though she tries and tries her world just falls apart
because if miracles can happen, maybe you can help her
piece back the puzzle of her heart

if miracles can happen, please bless the poor ones
the ones who just can't see through their fright
if miracles can happen, please dig down deep
because the earth is full of hurting souls tonight

yes if miracles can happen, please let them happen soon
for those blinded souls that wonder the earth tonight

illusion

no more
sunbeams dancing with laughter
sticky hands and new adventures
no more
mornings running away with the echo of tiny feet
a new year for the first time
no more
bundling up coats and gifts
the worst time of year
no more
picking flowers for little noses
games, problems, stories, hugs
never again
anything at all
good or bad
memories both nourish and devour
after mount everest nothing seems hard
or worthwhile
missing
days climb up to the end in the clouds
i was never good at chutes and latters
missing
past, present, future
beginnings, middles, ends
time itself dissolves into nothingness
missing
them
missing
life
missing
everything

I Love You So

i wanted to write you a love song
but i didnt know what to say
everything i think of's been taken
need to find an original way

i could write a song about your eyes baby
i could write a song about your smile
i could write a song bout what you do to me
but you already know you drive me wild
once upon a time i was your princess
but you've already heard that tale before
so i'm just gunna tell you what you already know
baby... i love you so

i bring out a paper and a pen
wait for my heart to open up it's doors
but looks like i got writers block once again
an ocean to swim in
but i'm stuck on the shore

i could write a song about your eyes baby
i could write a song about your smile
i could write a song bout what you do to me
but you already know you drive me wild
once upon a time i was your princess
but you've already heard that tale before
so i'm just gunna tell you what you already know
baby... i love you so

a hundred poets have tried to find the words
a thousand people have felt it
no one seems to be able to get it right
only three little words seem to fit

i could write a song about your eyes baby
i could write a song about your smile
i could write a song bout what you do to me
but you already know you drive me wild
once upon a time i was your princess
but you've already heard that tale before
so i'm just gunna tell you what you already know
baby... i love you so

I Fight Life

you dont know love and you dont know me
or else how could you leave me here to bleed
put on my headphones to drown it all out
all of the shit coming out of your mouth
and im not going to cry...

you don't know hurt and you don't know pain
or else how could you do this to me again
run as fast as i can to get away
from day after horrible day

and i'm not going to cry...
try as i, try as i, try as i might
kick me when im down
when life crumbles to the ground
struggle to stay out of the depths of despair
but i've been there
so i'm not going to cry
try as i, try as i, try as i might
i fight life

you may know spite and you may know anger
but friends like these won't get you anywhere
keep treating people like this and karma will bite you back
when push comes to shove you dont know who keeps track
you may know how to fight and how to get by
but who's going to miss that when you up and die
keep lying and breaking and soon you'll see
you drove away the ones that love you, like me

and i'm not going to cry...
try as i, try as i, try as i might
kick me when im downwhen life crumbles to the ground
struggle to stay out of the depths of despair
but i've been there
so i'm not going to cry
try as i, try as i, try as i might
i fight life

Daydream My Life Away

once upon a fairytale i sat up in my grand castle
where magic bloomed and imagination ran free
now i dig my brain for words, don't understand the hassle
no more pictures in my brain, nothing new appears to me
i sit and wonder, where's my happily ever after

because once upon a few years ago, i could just let go
and the world would fall away, i'm in my special place
where masterpieces drifted, sadness and black was lifted
get lost for hours and i don't want to find my way
day dream my life away

i cant see the future and the past is kinda gone
but put me in today and i got no clue whats going on
so find me in my own world, where i used to have a clue
but then reality interfered, and everything faded blue
now let me get back, lose myself again
let me seep into the world of paper and pen

because once upon a few years ago i could just let go
and the world would fall away, im in my special place
where masterpieces drifted, sadness and black was lifted
get lost for hours and i dont want to find my way
day dream my life away

once upon a time is every girl's favorite line
cause it means a happy ending's on the way
and eventually there will be light
but slip into reality and dreariness is all you'll see
imaginations starts to slip away
and theres no ending at all in sight

but once upon a few years ago i could just let go
and the world would fall away, im in my special place
where masterpieces drifted, sadness and black was lifted
get lost for hours and i dont want to find my way
day dream my life away

ooh once upon a few years ago i could just let go
and the world would fall away, im in my special place
where masterpieces drifted, sadness and black was lifted
get lost for hours and i dont want to find my way
day dream my life away

At Night

During the day
People surround me
My mind’s taken away
From all of the things that i dont like to see
During the day
I try to hide
The real me inside
The me using all her strength not to cry
During the day

But when no one can see me
At night
I’m totally swept away
And i sob as i pray
Because emotions run fast
And i’m stuck in the past
At night
Now i’ve gotta wipe the tears away
Maybe tomorrow will be a better day

During the day
I’m good at pretending
Practised at defending
During the day
Its like hide and seek
But you’ll never find me
Never get a peek
Not during the day

But when no one can see me
At night
I’m totally swept away
And i sob as i pray
Because emotions run fast
And im stuck in the past
At night
Now i’ve gotta wipe the tears away
Maybe tomorrow will be a better day

During the day i jump but at night i crash
My hearts been broken so much is there anything left
And i wish and i wish and i dream and i dream
I still hope and thats why it seems
To hurt so much
When it all comes raining down on me

When no one can see me
At night
I’m totally swept away
Emotions run fast
I’m stuck in the past
At night
Then i’ve gotta wipe the tears away
Maybe tomorrow’ll be a better day