Random Free Verse

There's never any words to write anymore.
Every scrap of my soul flutters out the door,
As the layers of my skin sink to the floor;
I'm naked, I'm sinking, have I been here before?
I'm searching, but I can't seem to find my core.

Believe me, I'm thinking of you my dear;
Even though I don't say so, I still hold you near.
I don't know if this feeling can still be called fear;
I don't know why I hide, I don't know why I tear.
I don't even know why I can't seem to hear.

I go through the motions with my eyes closed tight.
You can't know me, don't you dare ask me to fight.
Even I don't understand my plight.
Believe me, I try with all my might,
But all I've ever really wanted to do is take flight.

I think about going, I think about the world,
I think about the way everything has unfurled.
I think about what I've done and what I've hurdled,
As I think the world spins and deeper I'm twirled.
Maybe it's best to stay permanently whirled?

See what you wish to see, as I hibernate.
Things will be as they'll be; is this fate?
In the long run it doesn't matter what you equate;
Humans will continue to hate, mate and create
As the world around them seems to deflate.

I honestly don't know the point of my rambles
I guess I just felt that seeing how life is in shambles
And I can't say anything without it being a gamble
I might as well post something I fully wrote, instead of just preamble
To the things I post when I want to speak, but my brain scrambles.